I knew this would come, but all this time I pretend I don’t
notice it. Everything will come to an end, eventually. And my current
circumstances is no exception.
Right now, I have two voices in my head. One who wants me to
leave everything and start anew and the other one who wants me to stay.
Tonight, I have discovered that once I get out from this house, everything will
change. Everything that surrounds me now. I won’t be able to feel this kind of feeling anymore,
to see all of my fish whom I consider as my family, or to feel the warmth of the beach's sands anymore.
And I only have a few months left until it happens.
time, I don’t think I’d be ready to move and leave things behind because when
it ends, it ends.
When I leave, I don’t plan to go back. It’s not that I will go
for good but I just don’t know when exactly I will comeback.
All I know is when I comeback someday, it won’t be the same anymore.
It won’t be the same house I left before, it won’t be the
same faces I said goodbye before.
the cliché reason why I refuse to do something real now. I just want to
stay and be with them as long as I can, because I know, now is
the only time I have with them. I’m crying while making this post.